:( [[but the weight loss thing is going good]]
It’s safe to say that I am having a blue day, but I’m not really depressed or serene, just out of it. I don’t feel tired or awake. I don’t feel hungry or full. I don’t know how I feel! Although it’s safe to say that I feel like a stranger. I’m wearing jeans, comfortably, that actually look kinda hot, I’ve never fit in these jeans like this. No belly buldge, not too tight in the thighs, and the booty is fab! Top that off with a size L tank top and I’m feeling off. I did it. I’m losing weight and inches. I’m doing what I wanted to do. So why does it feel so surreal?
I didn’t exercise yesterday and doubt that I will today. I have no fire, no motivation. Although I should. I made it here! And I’ll do more! I guess it’s safe to say that until the hubby gets here, I’m going to feel apprehensive. Going to war does things to you. Coming back to the states is a whole different world. I’ve heard it all, researched it, talked to my hubby and other soldiers, and other things like that. Plus, seeing him makes me nervous. Am I really what he wants? Why the d*mn self-esteem issues again! WHY!?
I’ve been praying and praying. I prayed against depression. I thanked God for who I am and where I am. I thanked Him for how I’m improving my life, asking him for guidance all along the way. I’m doing all I think I can do, including burdening you guys with my fears. Sorry! I just have to get it out.
I heard “Stand by Me” yesterday and let the tears roll. I need to get the feelings out more. Turn the page and move on.
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Oh God girlie… I really feel for you. It’s horrible when it hits you out of the blue like that. When you just dont feel “right” and you dont know why. I have songs as well that make me cry when I hear them. If I’m feeling blue, I would listen to all the slow songs on Pinks album “Funhouse” and cry my heart out… go to sleep and feel better the next morning.
When’s your husband coming home? It would definately be something to look forward to. His going to be so happy to be home and to see you…
I dont know what else to say to help you feel better. Get through today. Tomorrow will be better.
Aww poop, blue days are always crap on us but don’t let it bother you. Stay focused, don’t give in to temptations and ekep it up Sab you’re doing just amazing, maybe you don’t realize it but you can do it!!!!!!!! Some on put a smile on that beautiful face of yours and try to get yourself out of the dumps.
Don’t mind the grammar errors!! LOL By the way Selena you’ve come so far up until now try to remember that.
I can understand how you feel, feeling annoyed and out of it but not quite able to put your finger on the reasons why.
You are doing great, and knowing you look great and that the weightloss is going well: well done!!
I can’t imagine how hard it is having your husband away but just try to concentrate on how great it will be to see him again. And how proud he will be of you and you of him for what he’s done.
take care, hope tomorrow is a better day